I know I have been off the grid for a while. I did start a blog post in December about Christmas but then Christmas kicked in and kicked that to the kerb!. I dislike Christmas intensely and have done for a long time, so I really worked myself up this time around, knowing I was going to have to get through it whilst also managing this illness, therefore work twice as hard at pretending to be twice as happy than I actually was about everything, because that it what Christmas is right? as I like to call it , A Holly Jolly Headfuck!. So needless to say I am glad it’s all over.Read More »
So I just thought I would write a little update. I have been trying to finish a couple of other blogs that I am in the middle of writing that are on different subjects, but the words are just not coming. I think it is maybe that I am so deep in managing my current situation right now that it is not allowing me the head space for much else. I guess that is the nature of the beast when dealing with mental illness. It is all-consuming.Read More »
I had no plans to write this post until I realised that it has recently been my 8 month anniversary, it has been 8 months since my life was turned upside down, and through no choice of my own I was forced to leave, more or less overnight, and with pretty much nothing.
Actually , why am I still dressing it up?.
I was aggressively forced out of my home and left with nothing and nowhere to go , no time to find a place to stay and therefore no chance of keeping my job. I was denied the opportunity to regain any level of independence or ability to maintain any level of lifestyle for myself. This wasn’t a stranger that did this to me, this was someone who I loved and trusted, someone who I thought I was building a life with.Read More »
……its ok to feel like you want to throw them at someone ….
The usual ending to this as we all know is ‘make lemonade’, I looked up the phrase out of curiosity and courtesy of our friends at Wikipedia is said to be this…
“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade” is a proverbial phrase, used to encourage optimism and a positive can-do attitude in the face of adversity or misfortune. Lemons suggest sourness or difficulty in life, just like lemonade.
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I love you.
Recently a male friend of mine told me that he loved me, he has said it now on more than one occasion. I reacted by not responding and then ultimately gave him a long lesson in why he shouldn’t be so free and easy in using those words, that it was ‘dangerous territory’ and would only ‘end in tears’, and if he wasn’t going to do anything about it then he shouldn’t say it.Read More »
I have dipped in and out of Yoga for a few years now, I have always exercised it is just part of who I am. I started off in my early 20’s with aerobics and then started playing around with weights, and in more recent years found Crossfit, wherever I have moved, sizing up the local gym and what that has to offer is second to looking at the place where I am going to live.Read More »